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What’s in a number?

The other day, I was walking through Sears and I saw a dress I liked hanging on a rack.

I was in a rush, and I didn’t have time to try anything on, so I held it up against myself and tugged at it to see if it would basically fit. It probably would.  I asked about their return policy, just in case, and went ahead and bought it.

It was a size 4.

I picked up a size 4 off of the rack and bought it without trying it on.

Turns out it fit perfectly.

A SIZE 4 FIT PERFECTLY.

Now, I have been at my goal weight for over 3 years now. I have clothes that are that old, and they still fit perfectly.  I have a closet full of great clothes.  It’s one of my favourite things about becoming, and staying skinny!  I can actually spend more on each item of clothing because it will last me longer. In my closet, I have anything from a size 8, down to a size 2. And hiding somewhere there in the back, there is a size 20, just to remind me where I was!

Last week, I had a fashion emergency.  I spilled lunch on my dress on a Thursday and it left a stain.  I had to lead a Weight Watchers meeting that night, and I couldn’t stand up in front of the room with a giant grease stain on my dress.   On the VERY SHORT drive between work & Weight Watchers work, I took a quick stop in the mall and ran in to find a dress.   I had done some advanced shopping online, so I knew what I wanted to try on. There was a BOGO sale, so I wended up leaving with 2 dresses, one in a size 6 and one in a size 4, from the same store.  I also grabbed a skirt off of the clearance rack, because $14.99 for a cute little pencil skirt was too good to pass up.  But the skirt was a SIZE 2!

So in ONE shopping trip, in ONE store, I bought THREE items, all in different sizes.

My body isn’t 3 different sizes.

I mean, yes, it fluctuates, and some days I have fat days and some days I have skinny days. But I tried on all those items on the SAME DAY!

So, if one day, a size 2, size 4 and size 6 all fit me perfectly, WHY am I so happy to be wearing the size 2 today?

WHY am I walking around, singing in my head “I’m wearing a size 2, I’m wearing a size 2”?

 

What all this had made me realize is that, in our quest to lose weight, we see a LOT of numbers.   We see our starting weight, the amount we’ve lost (or gained) each week, the clothing size we start in, and all the new sizes we go through on the journey to goal, and we see goal!  We see the  PointsPlus values/calories in our food! In our fitness journeys we see even more numbers. We see the kilometers(miles) we can walk/run, we see the speed settings on the treadmill, the weights we are able to lift, the length of time we can be active.

There are a LOT of numbers.

So what numbers matter??

Is it the number on the scale? The distance you can walk/run? The size of your clothes?

For me, the number on the scale still matters.  That’s how I know if I am on track, or letting myself slip a little. The distance I can run matters too, but these days it is more about seeing the time it takes run those distances get shorter!  And the size of my clothes, it matters, to a degree. I know that the size 2 I am wearing today doesn’t define me, and that tomorrow I could pull a size 8 our of my closet and have it fit just as well.  But there is still that sense of victory I get to be almost 35, pulling on an item of clothing that is 9 sizes smaller than what I wore on my 25th birthday!

 

It’s just a number, and it doesn’t define me… but it sure as heck feels good!

 

 

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3 Comments

  1. Meghan says:

    I just wanted to tell you how much you inspire me! I started reading your blog after I saw your post on the GoodLife Fitness Blog. I am also a young Canadian struggling with my weight. I am 19 years old and 245lbs. It is time for me to lose the weight. I read stories like yours to motivate me to do the work to lose. I appreciate your posting so much.

    Thank you for being so brave as to put your story out there.

    Check out mine at http://www.youngwomanchronicles.wordpress.com

    Thanks so much,

    Meghan

  2. Rosa says:

    I just wanted to tell you how much you inspire me! I started reading your blog after I saw your post on the GoodLife Fitness Blog. I am also a young Canadian struggling with my weight. I am 19 years old and 245lbs. It is time for me to lose the weight. I read stories like yours to motivate me to do the work to lose. I appreciate your posting so much.
    +1

  3. Nancy says:

    Thanks for the share!
    Nancy.R