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But I’m not sure I actually WANT to run another marathon.

I ran a half marathon on March 20th.

I ran my 10th half marathon on March 20th.

I ran my fastest half marathon on March 20th.

 

I fell in love with the half marathon on March 20th.

When I finished the Comox Valley Half Marathon on March 20th, I realized that I love that distance. The half marathon is the perfect race for me.  It’s still a distance race, but it is a bearable distance.  It’s still hard, but it’s a good hard.  It’s still an accomplishment.

I’m halfway through training for my second marathon.  A marathon that I probably shouldn’t have signed up for because of the time of year it takes places, but I signed up anyway, out of pure jealousy that so many of my friends were running a marathon and I wasn’t.

I’m half way through training for my second marathon, and I’m not sure I want to run it.

I’ve had to take a week off to let an open would heal on my foot.  At about 16K in to the half marathon, I started to feel friction between two toes. I could feel it rubbing with each step.  I could feel the dampness in my sock that let me knew this was going to be a nasty sight to see when I took my shoe off.

It was ugly when I took my sock off. I mean, I’ve had blisters & callouses and lost toe nails before, but I’ve never seen anything like this.  It was a mess.  Just a raw, fleshy mess of a toe.  I wasn’t going to let it stop me, but after seeking medical advice from a few sources, the decision was made that it was best to let it heal before lacing it back in to a sweaty shoe!

Well, that was over a week ago now.   And I still have laced my runners back up.

It is healing nicely, and I am sure I could safely go for a run, or a bike ride, or head to the gym.  I just don’t’ seem to want to.

I’m tired.

Marathon training is hard and I am tired.

What if I changed my registration to the half marathon on May 1st?  Would that be so bad?

Work is so crazy right now.  We’re going 6 days a week, and it only gets crazier from here on out.  We are just about half way through tax season and we have 75% of our workload yet to do.

Do I really want to be training for a marathon right now?

Do I really want to run another marathon?

 

<3 K.

 

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5 Comments

  1. Jon Suk says:

    It’s great to be asking these questions, Kirsty. It needs to fit what you want and need at THIS point in time. Plans and situations change and ultimately it’s about enjoying and feeling good about running, isn’t it?

  2. Katherine says:

    I have yet to run my first marathon, I started training over a year ago for Oct 2010 to be my first, but I had medical advice to take time off, lots of ‘stuff’ going on in my life, so ultimately I gave myself ‘permission’ to get out of it.

    After I did that, I felt AWFUL, and all the reasons for not going through with it felt hollow when I said them out loud to people checking in on my progress ( note to self, easier to back out if I don’t tell anyone I’m going to do it LOL). A coach once told me – that is ‘part’ of the lure of the marathon, part of our ‘training’ – pushing past our self talk, doubts, and self-inflicted ‘limits’ and following through on something we set our mind to.

    Half Marathon is ‘comfortable’ for you – the marathon is going to make you get out of the comfort zone – even if you did one before…this one seems to be testing different limits for you !?!? 🙂

  3. Tori says:

    I know how you feel Kirsty – I am feeling the same way right now. I think every marathon runner feels that way at this point in training. We’ll feel so much better once we cross that finish line and feel that sense of accomplishment!

  4. Skye says:

    I think anyone who’s been training for a marathon questions their decision (and their sanity) at some point. If you truly love the half marathon, it’s not too late to switch (and at least one of us has already done so). But you’ve already come so far, and it’s only one race. You’ve already put so much time and effort into your training, and everyone experiences setbacks in their training. Only you can decide what to do, but I think you’ll rock the marathon.

  5. Yuppers to all the thoughts above! Funny, because i just retweeted someone else’s comment that you have to love the process as much as you love the end result 🙂 I think that’s very true. And only you know what’s best for your body and mind!